such a huge part in your life that you expect it to always be there, because you cant remember a time when it wasnt. but then one day you feel somthing else, something that feels wrong. only because its so unfamiliar, and that moment you realize, your happy.
so true. change is scary no matter what. even if it’s a good change. it took me a while to be comfortable without being miserable.
Are you ready for a long survey that actually has some new questions? Why not?
Have you kissed someone in 2009 that means a lot to you? like romantically? no. not anyone that meant anything to me lol. but just for the record its 2010 now. just in case ya didn’t know.
What does the song you’re listening to remind you of? I’m listening to the birds outside… it reminds me of birds. lol Is there someone who you instantly smile when you receive a message from? not really lol
Name something you dislike about the day you’re having? The creepy guy who always asks me for cigarettes at work…who has now proceeded to get a little more personal. If anyone asks, I’ve got a boyfriend.
^ OMG CHELSEA I WENT THROUGH THE SAME THING LAST TIME I SAW HIM!!!
but anyway i guess i don’t like that i’m probably not gonna see this guy today. which means i’ll have to wait til next week…
If you are being extremely quiet what does that mean? it can mean a lot of things. i’m spacing out or bored or upset or tired
What were you doing at 3am this morning? sleeping for once lol
Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and you’re sure they won’t tell? Yes.
Have you made a mistake this past week? Big time. and i keep doing it because i don’t know if i want to stop
Is there anything in your past that you’d like to try again? not really
Will this weekend be a good one? who knows? probably tho =)
Where is your biological father right now? don’t know, don’t care.
Is your room clean? ACTUALLY YES!!!!
How many tattoos would you get? hahahah well i have two. and i think i already know what i’m getting for my next four. sooo yeah lol
What is the latest you’ve stayed up in the past week? like 5?
Have you ever fallen asleep while texting someone? haah last night texting colby
What are you sick of? society’s rules and expectations
Could you date someone taller than you? duhh
Could you date someone shorter than you? i don’t think so.
Did you have any unread text messages this morning when you woke up? yes =)
TEN HOW’S: How did you get one of your scars? well i got attacked by a dog. twice. lol
How did you celebrate your last birthday? i got high with a little help from my friends
How are you feeling at this moment? frustrated/conflicted
How did your night go last night? haha i went to bed at like seven.. i only got like 3 hours sleep the night before and was deaddddd
Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing? Wai’m wearing a dress and a cartigan. the dress is h&m and the cartigan is ny&co
How much money did you spend last month? you act like i keep track. too much lol
How old do you want to be when you get married? older than i am now. but not too old. lol
What did you do this past weekend? ummm worked, went to lunch with family, got high twice, drank, had sex, made bad decisions. lol i guess the last two count as oneee
What is the most important part of your life? my friends and family
What would you rather be doing? be with him
What did you last cry over? one of my friends hurting
What always makes you feel better when you’re upset? getting high
What’s the most important things you look for in a significant other? well they should be a good person. i’m still trying to figure the rest out. i’m a sucker for a charmer tho. and he has to make me laugh
What did you have for breakfast? half a bagel
EIGHT HAVE YOU’S: Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend? nah i don’t think so
Have you ever been out of the country? france, canada, mexico
Have you ever done something outrageously dumb? almost every day lol
Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend? nah
Have you ever had sex on the beach? The drink? No, but i should
Have you ever read an entire book in one day? yep
SEVEN WHO’S: Who was the last person you saw? Pop-pop
Who was the last person to call you? Colby
Who did you last hug? Barbara
Who is the last person who texted? Lexi
Who is your favorite celebrity? tay swift <3
Who do you like? i don’t like anybody. ever. i hate everyone.
haha jk. i like my friends and most of my family. and maybe this guy.
SIX WHERE’S: Where did you last go? work
Where did you last hang out? in my room? does that count? ummm in the walgreens parking lot? closer to counting? idk… oh well if they dont work than the boardwalk in seaside
Where is your favorite place to be? i dont really care where i am. it’s more who i’m with
Where did you sleep last night? My bed at pop-pop’s
Do you think anyone likes you? yes
Do you ever wish you were someone else? Sometimes. but not seriously.
Does the future scare you? more than anything
Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)? because they’re basically the most amazing people ever.
Why did your parents give you the name you have?
because she liked it.
THREE IF’S: If you could have one super power what would it be? transformationnn
If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you? yeah. i’d probably shoot hitler. or save john lennon.
If you were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring? A laptop w/ internet connectivity…but I guess I wouldn’t be stranded then, huh? Hah. <ooooh good idea sameeee
ONE LAST QUESTION: Are you happy with your life right now? yes but i’d like it more if it were less complicated
“I think that perhaps we always fall in love the very first time we see the man of our dreams, even though, at the time, reason may be telling otherwise, and we may fight against that instinct, hoping against hope that we won’t win, until there comes a point when we allow ourselves to be vanquished by our feelings.”—
“Music does bring people together. It allows us to experience the same emotions. People everywhere are the same in heart and spirit. No matter what language we speak, what color we are, the form of our politics or the expression of our love and our faith, music proves: We are the same.”—John Denver (via weallseekthetruth) (via quote-book)
i’m an extreme kind of person. i think i always have been. i think in extremes and i feel in extremes. and no matter how many meds i take i think i’ll always be like that. like it used to be horrible. really horrible. but now its just… idk. frustrating? like i can finally understand the concept of balance but just can’t seem to attain it.
except for a little while ago when i was in vermont.
i felt peaceful. for once in my life. like everything was gonna be okay. no matter what. because the mountains were beautiful and the sun was bright and the land was green. how could anything be wrong in a place like that? when i was there i was happy just driving around mountains listening to music with the windows down. happier than i’ve been in a while. but a peaceful kind of happy. not happy with passion or excitement. just happy. it was so simple. it was beautiful.
maybe it was also that i was high a lot of the time there. but even so i was a lot happier there than here, high or not.
as for now, i’m in a funk. not my favorite place to be.
“Dear Diary, today will be different. It has to be. I will smile, and it will be believable. My smile will say, ‘I am fine, thank you. Yes, I feel much better.”—Elena (Vampire Diaries) | Submitted by Ishaaa (via quote-book)